"I know,it has been difficult for you to handle those situations.." Britta said while we were walking. She stopped at the parking lot and faced me. "I'm really sorry."
Not knowing what is she talking about,i asked,"What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"No swearing Hayley,please."
"Sorry."
"By the way.."she continued."Its all about Josh. You get it now?"
Pffft. I thought it was something important or an issue. Gah,if Josh isn't around,i hear his name. Why oh why.."You know Britta..you don't know what you are talking about. And who is Josh?" Boo hoo! I was pretending.
She sighed. "Don't lie,okay?" her face was serious and full of sincerity.I felt guilty. She looks so kind. How dare ME."His friends told me about it,and we don't like it."
"His friends?"suddenly,i was angry.They were still defensive. After telling my mom that they saved me,now,they're telling Britta that they don't like what Josh does? I mean,ALL OF THEM.I hate liars,even though i am one of them."You know Britta,His friends,including your supernatural animal boyfriend has been pissing me off since last week! They locked me up inside a room full of large and juicy spiders,and just this morning,they poured glue on my hair! Sorry is not enough. And your apology isn't counted."
"Shh."She tried to stop me."Lower down your voice okay?"That time,i thought we are going to fight. But she's calm. She listened to me. She's not one of them.I know."I understand you.That is why I want to know more about what happened.
"Why? What do you want?" My tone was still not-so-nice.
She was about to speak when my Mom suddenly appeared."Hayley,are you coming home with me?"
"Chill for a second Mom." I yelled.Britta looked at me.
"See you tomorrow."
"Hopefully."
And i left her.
Mom asked me several questions about Britta. But sorry mom,i'm not in the mood today. Besides,I'm really confused. I don't know the reason behind the "Saying Sorry" thingy. Yea,she was kind to me but i can't be good to her. If she asks me to be her friend,i will say no. I don't like this feeling. My mind is completely puzzled and i'm angry,guilty,sad,hyper,i can't determine! And i developed a BAD BAD BAD MOOD.
The bad mood remained until the next morning. I was scolded by mom because i told her that i'm too lazy to go to school. Addie and Lizzie weren't talking to me that much.Our teacher made me sit at the front row because i slept in her class. I failed a long quiz in Math. I lost the keys for my locker. I don't have my book for history class because it was stuck inside my locker. My teacher won't let me attend his class because I don't have the book.
What a bad day for me.
Since I wasn't able to attend class,I went to the library for a self study. Even though i like it or not,i have to do this because my teacher gives surprise quizzes whenever she wants to.You know,if you were me,you'll find everything difficult. So hard to understand. Why is this happening to me? I thought it was Josh who makes my life miserable.Now,i know,what pisses me of is my life itself.
The book annoys me,the words are terrible. They don't exist in my vocabulary. Beacuse of maybe-anger?? i slammed my hand on the table. And abracadabra. I felt like a celebrity. Everyone in the library was staring at me. The feeling? Well,its embarassing,but I ignored it. I went out of the library like nothing happened. The librarian's stare was scary,it made me run away.
"Hey,are you okay?" Lizzie was worried about me. I was sitting alone in the canteen,sipping a tall glass of milkshake.
"What re you doing here?" My tone. No sign of any emotion.
Addie sat beside me."Well,history class is over,isn't it obvious? We're here to check if you're okay.As i have noticed,you're having a terrible trauma."
"I "had" a terrible trauma,take note of that."
She smirked."Whatever..So,how do feel?"
I sighed."Its unexpalinable.don't ask."
Lizzie chuckled."Poor Hayley." I eyed her and raised an eyebrow.
"Funny?"
Liz shook her head.Means no.Nothing.
"Excuse me.Hayley? Can I talk to you?" It was not Addie's voice. Not Lizzie's voice. A man's voice.And i know who was it.He just came.When i looked at him,i felt like i'm going to hell. To slay dragons.
"Go away,or else i'll give you a milkshake bath."I said angrily.
"Go ahead."He shot back.My friends were just silent,they didn't do anything.They were frozen on their seats. Afraid of that guy?Pfft,they're cowards.
I stood up to scare him(actually,i don't have the guts to do what i just said). He just remained where he stood! Josh Farro didn't move,like he was ready to take a bath. A milkshake bath.
"You aren't going to dodge this?" i asked him as i held the glass up high. He just laughed at me and pinched my cheek.
"Hayley,i bet you couldn't do that.Could you? And i just realized. Dumb people are also funny...sometimes."
Addie gasped."She's not dumb excuse me?"
"Shut up."he told her.Addie covered her face using her hands. She was embarassed.
"Hey you." i punched Josh's shoulders."You are rude.What do you want huh?"
Without saying anything,he grabbed my hand,like what he did yesterday in his mom's party. He pulled me until we reached the place where we first met. Near the entrance of the boys locker rooms.Damn,what is he going to do? anyways,i'm not scared. Its just.. why did he bring me here?
"Now,Hayley." he began."Its all your fault. Honestly,I don't know the reason why I hate you so much. I wanna make fun out of you,i don't like you."
"Damn you!" i shot back. "What have I done wrong? If i told the whole class that you and Britta were making out on the locker rooms,would you die? I said sorry! you won't accept it.and now,you are telling me that you hate me? of course you do! I know that already because you made me feel that you do.What you did was enough,I don't need those words coming from your mouth."
"I'm sorry!" he yelled.
Miracle. Is it? Or another hoax? whatever.I laughed at him but he was serious. Maybe he was really sorry. I don't know.So,i asked a question.
"Is that true? why Josh?"
"None of your business."
"Fuck you."
"What?!" and now,he's angry.
"You are sorry,but you won't tell me why?"
He scowled at me. I think this is nonsense. So,what I did: I pushed him out of my way and walked out. Melodramatic eh? but what happened was weird. I'll go ask Britta about it.
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